The Channeling Conundrum and the Worthiness Wound

Dear Diary, These days, I’m once again confronted with the idea that there’s a part of me, rooted in my earliest childhood, that has not felt loved, that has not felt accepted.The theory behind this would suggest that it’s what has driven me into painful and unsuccessful relationships—that I unconsciously feel unworthy, or perhaps that… [keep reading]

Recognizing Patterns of Rejection and Guilt

Dear Diary, Today I noticed a recurring pattern in my life, which I’ve come to view as a ‘red thread’ of sorts. Occasionally, women or girls, to whom I’m not attracted, may exhibit actions that I interpret as an attempt to forge a connection or show affection. This prompts a natural response of rejection from… [keep reading]