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The Gratitude Guilt Paradox

Dear Diary, Yesterday, while writing my gratitude journal entry, I made an intriguing observation: expressing gratitude in light of recent events in Israel triggered a fear within me. It felt as though being grateful for experiencing peace could somehow be an omen of impending misfortune. I recognize that a latent sense of guilt might be… [keep reading]

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Ghosts of Relationships Past: The Quest for Clarity

Dear Diary, Last night I dreamt my ex: she was asking me a question, whether I like her. My answer was a little uncertain. I don’t remember what happened next, but in the scene after that, I was looking for her and I couldn’t find her. I believe I felt guilty, because I didn’t give… [keep reading]

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Recognizing Patterns of Rejection and Guilt

Dear Diary, Today I noticed a recurring pattern in my life, which I’ve come to view as a ‘red thread’ of sorts. Occasionally, women or girls, to whom I’m not attracted, may exhibit actions that I interpret as an attempt to forge a connection or show affection. This prompts a natural response of rejection from… [keep reading]

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Dealing with Grief and Finding Forgiveness

Dear Diary, Today, I brought my father back home. It seems like a trivial thing, except for one detail: I brought my father’s ashes home. My father passed away many years ago, but I still harbor some emotions. Not so much about his death, but about his illness. His disease took away his coordination and… [keep reading]