Dear Diary, I haven’t written for a while again, but maybe these times have been very productive nonetheless. Anyway, I’m here again to share the precious insight from today’s work on myself. I realized that I’ve felt many times in my life that I had to compete for love. This appeared today as a clear… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Yesterday was an interesting day. First, my fight with a coworker I’m about to disengage with left me feeling bitter, angry, and hurt. My fears of isolation emerged. Yet, somewhere beyond these fears and related negative emotions, there must have been a lingering sense of peace—one that perhaps only became clearer today. This… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, The clash between these two parts of me is evident. One—call it the ego, though I still believe it holds something worthy of honor—seems eager to prove itself, to feel secure in the knowledge that I can stand up for myself, set boundaries, speak my truth, and not let disrespect go unchecked.The other… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Just to record my thoughts: I feel like many things are going on these days—perhaps ancient emotions that need to be released, deeply rooted convictions that need to be questioned, and new directions that need to be found.In these turbulent moments, it’s hard to steer my wheel—it feels like I’m constantly in danger… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, It’s been a while since I last wrote an entry, even though I’ve had things to say. But what I sensed in my meditation today felt so significant that it prompted me to resume this journaling work with you. I sensed a profound, deep-seated feeling of “betrayal”—of being betrayed. Most of the time,… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today was a tough day, digging deep into my wounds, most of the time triggered by external events that spiraled my thoughts.Luckily, I must be learning not to act in that state: in those moments, my perception is very skewed, and at best, I risk treating others unfairly.It’s always surprising when I realize… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I haven’t been closer to my deepest wound before: I’ve found another underlying emotion behind the pain and the crying, and that emotion resembles terror. It is an acute fear, but fear of what exactly? Funny thing, when I felt it, it’s like I forgot to ask myself about it, as though it… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, A very quick meditation following a fresh trigger turned into what might be a powerful revelation. Inspired by today’s ACIM lesson, “Let me remember what my purpose is,” I’ve been led to see that: My ancient wound is significant enough that I cannot understate it; its influences are still present. That ancient wound… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today, I’m prompted to write to you because of a line inspired by A Course in Miracles: “Here in this world, we cannot do anything else but dream.” I’ve never thought about that before. But perhaps it aligns with everything that is happening these days—so much emotional sharing and release… It seems I’m… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, What’s going on? My mind has been running wild for a while now, or maybe it’s my emotions. They’ve been triggered by the similarity of situations, even though the actors and roles are different. The present gets confused with the past, friends with lovers, and the objectivity of reality seems to have vanished…. [keep reading]