Dear Diary, Diving deep into my ancient wounds has left me feeling “puzzled,” for lack of a better word. It’s as if I hadn’t realized the extent of this old suffering and how it has conditioned me throughout my life. I’m sorry to say this, but I am feeling sorry for myself; it seems I… [keep reading]
Dear diary, Today brought a striking “revelation”: it feels as though all the struggles we endure in our lives resemble weights in a gym, used in resistance training. Behind the facade of these struggles lies a version of our Self that remains strong and unaffected by the specific trauma. This viewpoint has both spiritual and… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Last night’s dream was convoluted, and I can’t remember many details. However, I want to note a moment when I was atop a bizarrely complex building. For reasons I can’t recall, I needed to climb my way down. The height, or perhaps the fear of falling, unnerved me a little. But I managed… [keep reading]
Dear Universe, Thank you again for the increase in visits on my YouTube channel! I’m aware that perhaps I shouldn’t put too much weight on these vanity metrics, but I also genuinely appreciate the personal feedback I receive in the comments. These metrics and responses help fuel my drive. I invest several hours every day… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today felt like a pivotal moment. My YouTube channel, which I’ve poured my heart into for almost a year, was the target of a particularly venomous comment. Given that my content revolves around a specific spiritual journey, the hateful words seemed to stem from religious fanaticism. I did my best to handle the… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, How am I truly feeling right now? Is this state of mind essential, or could I perhaps view things from a different perspective? Knowing that my ex is attending this gathering unsettles me a bit. I’m gripped by a mild paranoia, fearing that people might discuss me behind my back, joke at my… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Let’s face it: today has been a disaster. Without delving into details (as you already know what I’m referencing), one part of my mind is quick to blame me. It spirals into anxiety, contemplating tasks, problems to address, and strategies to devise. However, another part of me, beyond this frantic noise, seems to… [keep reading]
Today, I am grateful for the opportunity to work on my dreams. Although it was, at times, an exhausting day, I feel truly blessed to have this chance, regardless of the eventual outcome or what the future holds. I am also thankful for a pleasant conversation I had with my friend, Giulia. Additionally, I’m grateful… [keep reading]