Dear Diary, These days, I’m once again confronted with the idea that there’s a part of me, rooted in my earliest childhood, that has not felt loved, that has not felt accepted.The theory behind this would suggest that it’s what has driven me into painful and unsuccessful relationships—that I unconsciously feel unworthy, or perhaps that… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, There are so many nuances to this ancient wound I’m in touch with—nuances I feel I only understand when I go deep, fully connected to the wound. When I return to a more ordinary state of mind, that understanding fades, and even the memory of it seems to vanish.But to sum it up,… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I want to begin documenting my experiences during my meditation and spiritual practices. Today, in meditation, I encountered something subtle yet difficult to describe in detail: on one hand, there’s the beauty and blessing of the path I’ve chosen, which should fill my heart with joy, enthusiasm, and motivation to continue. On the… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Perhaps the insights from yesterday had an impact today. To revisit yesterday’s insights: Today, during meditation, I discovered a tumult of inflamed emotions festering in my belly. As I tried to release them, it seemed to me that they were connected to yesterday’s neurosis: perhaps a mix of desperation, insecurity, and a sense… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, It’s not the first time I’ve had this thought, but who knows, maybe now it’s different and I can begin to experiment with and apply this idea to my life in a systematic way. The thing is, it seems to me that I might be able to channel love. Perhaps I can channel… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today has indeed been a testing day, shadowed by heavy thoughts and heightened emotions. I often found myself dwelling on what I believe I haven’t accomplished rather than what I have. The lack of financial independence, the struggle to work enough hours to keep things afloat, the absence of a fulfilling relationship, and… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Something curious has been happening to me, and I realized I’ve never documented it here. I’ve been making an effort to meditate, both in the mornings and evenings. My goal is a 15-minute session each time. In the mornings, I generally manage quite well – some days are better than others, of course…. [keep reading]