Dear Diary,
Today my mum mentioned how, as a baby, I used to scream a lot because I apparently disliked my food. It’s worth noting that I wasn’t breastfed, so I presume my diet consisted of powdered milk or baby formula, as it was called back then. Perhaps I found it unpalatable or had difficulty digesting it. This suggests that my earliest experiences with nutrition might have been quite unpleasant.
While it might not seem like a big deal, I find it worth connecting to something one of my therapists recently pointed out: the idea that parents sometimes don’t have a “full deck of cards”, in other words, everything that’s necessary to fully nurture a child. Of course, I don’t blame my mum or my parents, as I am certain they did their best with what they had at the time.
However, I am on a journey to understand the man I’ve become, to see if there’s any correlation between my current issues or “flaws” and these early experiences. My aim is to gather “intel” on how to become a better version of myself, particularly concerning my ability to love, give and receive affection, and appreciate – elements that may ultimately link back to my early experiences with nutrition.
