Reflecting on your words, it’s evident that the journey to spiritual alignment and authenticity is not a straight path but a meandering one, filled with both clarity and doubt. Everyone, regardless of their public persona or role as a guide for others, will experience days when their beliefs are tested, or their connection to those beliefs wanes.
You mentioned not being able to feel surrounded by God’s love, as per the day’s exercise from ACIM. It’s crucial to remember that feelings, by nature, are transient. They come and go, influenced by a myriad of external and internal factors. Your disappointment from the eye surgery appointment is valid and may have contributed to this detachment. However, feelings don’t always align with reality or beliefs. Just because you couldn’t “feel” it doesn’t mean you aren’t surrounded by love.
Also, the juxtaposition of your mood and your YouTube channel’s content presents an intriguing duality. Is it not a testament to the human experience to grapple with these contrasts? Your audience may find solace in knowing that even someone guiding them through their spiritual journey has their moments of doubt. This only underscores the authenticity of your journey.
Exercise Suggestion: The next time you’re confronted with a challenging day or feeling disconnected, try to sit quietly and journal your feelings without judgment. Ask yourself: “What am I feeling right now? Why might I be feeling this way? How can I return to my center?” This can serve as a reflective tool to navigate through such moments.
