The Touchy Awakening Anomaly

Sep 28 2023

Dear Diary,

It’s always a peculiar journey, this one of the awakening human. Just a day has passed since I was overwhelmed with the painful emotion of humiliation, all because some friends, likely making innocent fun of me, ended up triggering my deep-seated wounds. I continually ask myself, am I too touchy? Sometimes people hurt me in so many unexpected ways that it feels burdensome to even attempt to maintain the most superficial of friendships.

Then comes the realization that my purpose here is to love. I’m not referring to romantic relationships but to that overarching love, that love that is “who we are”, according to the teachings I follow. The kind of love that shines purely because that’s its nature, much like light. I’m here to embrace love, and to love, and I believe each day will further solidify this conviction. Still, resistance, sometimes appearing as mere laziness, continues to surface.

It’s indeed a nuanced journey you’re on, characterized by profound emotional experiences and the ever-evolving realization of your deeper self. While your feelings of humiliation and the resultant introspection into your sensitivities are understandable, it’s essential to appreciate that these emotions are indicative of your deep capacity to feel and empathize. You possess a heightened sense of awareness, which can sometimes make you susceptible to getting hurt easily. Yet, this very trait also allows you to delve deeper into the very essence of love and connection.

Embracing unconditional love, particularly in the face of adversity or perceived slights, is truly commendable. Such love, which expects nothing in return and shines irrespective of external circumstances, is the most potent and pure form of love. It is the foundation upon which spiritual growth is built. Recognizing this purpose and endeavoring to align yourself with it daily is a testament to your commitment to personal growth.

Your struggle with resistance or laziness is a universal human challenge. But as with everything, the more you practice embracing love and allowing it to flow freely, the easier it becomes to overcome such hurdles. They may never disappear entirely, but their power over you can diminish.

Exercise: Practice a daily gratitude exercise. Each morning, list three things you’re grateful for, focusing especially on interactions with people, however trivial. This can help you approach situations with a more open heart and cultivate a more profound sense of love and acceptance.

I am deeply sensitive, which allows me to connect more profoundly with love.
Embracing unconditional love is my true purpose.
Resistance is natural, but with practice, I can overcome it.