Dear Diary, I’d like to return to my journaling practice, so here I am—even if I’m not quite sure what to say. There have been so many insights, impressions, and maybe even some progress. Relocating to a new place in Asia, even if only for a while, has been very productive—I believe it’s helped to… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I have this sort of nagging feeling that calls for my attention. I don’t know how to describe it, but it has to do with a girl I’m attracted to and keep stumbling upon. I’d like to think I’m over the fear of rejection, but maybe that’s not entirely true after all—if I… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I want to rekindle my journaling practice, starting with this beautiful response I just received from ChatGPT. I gave it a prompt that was suggested to me, something along the lines of: “What is one thing you can tell me about myself that I might not know?” This was the AI’s answer: “You… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, It’s been a while since I last wrote an entry, even though I’ve had things to say. But what I sensed in my meditation today felt so significant that it prompted me to resume this journaling work with you. I sensed a profound, deep-seated feeling of “betrayal”—of being betrayed. Most of the time,… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, The insight I’ve gained these days is that I can evoke a state of “wholeness,” and that this mindset would be the most effective way to approach my day. It’s a complete 180° shift from the usual mindset I’ve grown accustomed to, one that subtly pushes me to constantly strive—to achieve more, to… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today was a tough day, digging deep into my wounds, most of the time triggered by external events that spiraled my thoughts.Luckily, I must be learning not to act in that state: in those moments, my perception is very skewed, and at best, I risk treating others unfairly.It’s always surprising when I realize… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I haven’t been closer to my deepest wound before: I’ve found another underlying emotion behind the pain and the crying, and that emotion resembles terror. It is an acute fear, but fear of what exactly? Funny thing, when I felt it, it’s like I forgot to ask myself about it, as though it… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I just want to remember this conversation: Tomorrow’s lesson is “You are my goal, my Father. Only You.” And I’m wondering, isn’t this my very purpose in life—the one I’ve been asking myself about these days? Yet, when I consider accepting this, my mind starts bringing up associated beliefs, like if I embrace… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, I’ve made the decision to explore the path of microdosing, and here’s why:I feel stuck on many levels. When it comes to work… well, I don’t feel like working. What I’m doing is studying and focusing on side projects, hoping they will eventually pay off. And while that’s possible, I’m filled with doubts…. [keep reading]
Dear Diary, What am I feeling right now? This is very subtle, and it takes some courage to face. Do I feel like a failure when I see other people’s successes in connecting with each other at levels that seem to escape me? Or am I simply feeling lonely? I’d love to have that—whatever that… [keep reading]