Dear Diary, Last night, I had a dream in which I found myself arguing, even fighting, with some unspecified “parents” of a partner or lover. The specifics are fuzzy, but it felt as if I was undergoing a “screening” in which these “parents” were evaluating my suitability as a potential partner for their daughter. Frustratingly,… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, The main issue that marked today revolved around an uncomfortable social obligation: a dinner with relatives and cousins. This predicament stirs a certain grumpiness within me. I feel compelled to attend due to societal and familial expectations, yet it clashes with my personal preferences and interferes with my commitment to healthy eating and… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Yesterday, during dinner with my aunt and her family, I experienced a peculiar sense of connection with her. She has always been my “favorite” aunt, but yesterday it seemed like our bond extended beyond this life. It felt as if we had shared some relationship in past lives. I am left wondering how… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Yesterday, I had to confront some old emotions – feelings of being attacked, criticized, and unappreciated. Here’s how the dynamic usually unfolds: I might ask friends or contacts for help, like finding a reliable contact for some renovation work for a potential house purchase, as was the case yesterday. In response, I receive… [keep reading]
Last night, I found myself on a train, likely during the night because I had to find a carriage or section where I could sleep. As I walked through the train, I ended up in a large room (I know, a large room shouldn’t fit into a train carriage), where a sizable cobweb stretched across… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, There’s not much to report about today, except for a ‘small’ revelation: One of the lessons from A Course in Miracles suggested that I should forgive every hour, thereby ensuring that the next hour is free from the influence of the past. This means that each waking hour should be spent forgiving the… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Tonight, I find myself grappling with a whirlwind of emotions: Envy? Frustration? Hopelessness? It seems that watching some carefree individual promoting his tantra school or course ignited these feelings within me. I find myself envying him for appearing to have access to all the fun and intimacy that seem beyond my reach. This… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today my mum mentioned how, as a baby, I used to scream a lot because I apparently disliked my food. It’s worth noting that I wasn’t breastfed, so I presume my diet consisted of powdered milk or baby formula, as it was called back then. Perhaps I found it unpalatable or had difficulty… [keep reading]
Dear Diary, Today I noticed a recurring pattern in my life, which I’ve come to view as a ‘red thread’ of sorts. Occasionally, women or girls, to whom I’m not attracted, may exhibit actions that I interpret as an attempt to forge a connection or show affection. This prompts a natural response of rejection from… [keep reading]
Last night, I had a dream: In front of the house I’m currently staying at (which happens to be my mum’s house), there’s another building. Within this building, one of the apartments housed a woman, a tailor. She was tasked with making a smart suit and shirt for me. It seemed like she might have… [keep reading]